Ready or Not, Braeden is coming... SOON.

We officially have 2 weeks left before D-day... give or take a week.  The scariest part for me is not knowing exactly when it will happen. I have always loved the anticipation before receiving gifts but this time it is alittle different. There are so many things that we will be surprised with. Obviously we know we are having a boy ( that would be a disaster if it ended up being a girl haha)... but we don't know when he is coming, how big he will be, if he will be healthy, what he will look like, or if labor will go according to plan. All of those variables have left me wondering and a bit anxious.

I have been trying to keep myself busy so i dont' panic, but its so weird that in just 2 short weeks, our life will FOREVER be different. It is scary to think about how much will change. I hope we are ready for it.  Either way, he is coming!

Ever since i was little, i wanted to be a mom. I loved playing dolls, loved taking care of my sister when she was born (she is seven years younger than me), and loved babysitting.  Even in college, i was always the "Momma" of the house. Whenever we would go to parties, I would make sure everyone had everything, went to the bathroom, and kept all of the purses.  I just loved making sure everyone was happy and safe. When I first met Dan, he asked me what i wanted to "be when i grow up" kind of.... At the time, i was halfway through college, and Im pretty sure my response was "a mom". Im sure that sounds weird, especially when first meeting someone, but it was the honest truth. I have always just wanted to be a mom.

But now the time is actually here. I am about to be a MOM. I am honestly scared out of my mind. Don't get me wrong, I have also never been more excited in my entire life, but its hard not knowing all the variables. How will Braeden's life be? Will we raise him right? What if i mess up?

All of these insecurities rush into my head. When the time is here, i am hoping and praying that everything will come natural. I already find myself praying for him... for his health, safety, wisdom, and happiness. All i really can do is love him and Im sure everything will fall into place.

Ready or Not, its almost time. We cant wait to meet him...  I have been waiting for him my whole  entire life. 

Here is a sneak peak at my hospital bag!

 Toiletries:

I'm sure i wont get to use the majority of it, but I figured i wanted to just in case.

-toothbrush, floss, mouthwash, dental floss

-olay face wipes

-contacts, solution, and case

-deodorant and perfume

-shampoo, conditioner, body wash, and lotion

-heavy pads and nipple cream
-comb, extra rubberband, headband, and claw
-also, breast pads are packed but not pictured

Makeup bag:

 with the bare minimums!

Clothing:

-Thin bathrobe ( incase i want to cover up when visitors come in)

-lightweight pj's

-nursing bra and granny panties

-2 pairs of fuzzy socks (non slip)

-Going home comfy maxi dress

Baby Items:

So i have heard that my hospital sends you hope with tons of products including diapers, wipes, and lots of other goodies. Here is what i packed for Braeden.

- a couple outfits

(real simple onesies, and then a little polo and shorts)

-mits and paci

-light weight muslin blanket

Extras:

- A foldable, large recycleble bag (to bring home freebies and gifts)

-a small notepad and pen (for jotting down notes, gifts, etc)

-headphones

-camera and charger

-cell phone charger

Things not pictured:

Dan's bag: Change of clothes for Dan, his toiletries,  our fancy camera and charger, ipad and charger, and a Pillow.

I would love to hear if I am missing anything major. I will do another blog after the birth saying things i wish i left at home and things i wish i brought.  At least we live about a 1/4 mile from the hospital ;)