Motherhood

* This was written a while ago and I am just now getting a chance to post it*

Yesterday I embarked on a new adventure. I use the word adventure loosely in this context because I usually really enjoy adventures! Maybe I can trick my brain.

Monday, November 10th, Braeden went to his first day of daycare (see the picture to the right). And for me, I went back to work. I took the full 12 weeks of maternity leave, and let me tell you what... It is not long enough. Time went by so incredibly fast. I feel like he was just born yesterday (I know all moms say that).. But for real... it is insane.

My baby boy is growing way to fast. He is over 15lbs now, and growing like a weed. In less than a week he will officially be 3 months old. Unless you have a child already, you will never truly understand how much your life will change when they actually arrive. I feel like my heart is exploding out of my chest with love for this baby boy. Sometimes if i sit and look at him for too long, i begin to cry. He is beyond perfect. What a miracle. *Bias alert*.

So here is a random list of what has changed in the last 3 months.

Motherhood has...

-given me a new sense of patience. Babies are alot of work and sometimes things just take longer than normal.

- taught me not to judge other parents. Sometimes babies just cry, they don’t care if they are at the grocery store, restaurant, or home. It is not always the parents fault.

-made me more emotional. Yes, i know hormones are definitely more out of whack, but whatever. I see sick babies on tv or at work and sometimes i well up with tears. I cannot imagine Braeden in that situation.

-made me more cautious. I never thought I would be the over protective mother, but there are so many things that could go wrong. I just want my baby to be safe. (I’m sure it doesn’t help that this is my first baby)

-made me more appreciative. Once you become a parent, you look back on your own childhood and realize how much your own parents loved you and did for you. The title of "parent" is beyond hard work. Even just the simple act of child birth... gosh, you better run off and tell your mom "thanks". haha.

-made me love harder. Life really is fragile. So many things go wrong... people get sick or accidents happen.. It is all beyond your control. Show the ones that matter the most how much you love them.